changehistory: (I hate myself for you)
Adam Monroe ([personal profile] changehistory) wrote2007-12-13 11:57 pm

[10spot] 059 -- Ten People You've Hurt

1. Hiro
2. Kaito
3. Angela
4. Victoria
5. Arthur
6. Bob
7. Elle
8. Peter
9. Yaeko
10. Jack

Some I'm even sorry for. Some. Possibly half, but do not attempt to hold me to that.

[identity profile] powered-otaku.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 07:36 am (UTC)(link)
I deserve that. So, what will you do now? You have your sword.

[identity profile] changehistory.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 07:39 am (UTC)(link)
I told you I wouldn't kill you. Beyond that...I do not know.

[identity profile] powered-otaku.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 08:00 am (UTC)(link)
Bleed me? Make me give up something to your anger?

[identity profile] changehistory.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 08:07 am (UTC)(link)
What would you give? What would you ask of me to satisfy yours?

[identity profile] powered-otaku.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 08:10 am (UTC)(link)
It would depend on what you asked for. Certain things you may ask for may not be mine to give. I don't know that mine can be satisfied and I may just have to live with that fact.

[identity profile] changehistory.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 08:13 am (UTC)(link)
Can you live with it? It doesn't sound as if it gives us anywhere to go, to move forward.

[identity profile] powered-otaku.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 08:20 am (UTC)(link)
*Hiro shrugs.* It is the way of things. We cannot have everything we want.

So, what would you ask of me?

[identity profile] changehistory.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 08:24 am (UTC)(link)
As I said--I do not know yet. Nothing I can think of would be sufficient.

[identity profile] powered-otaku.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 08:32 am (UTC)(link)
Perhaps something that would, at least, assuage it temporarily?

[identity profile] changehistory.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 08:49 am (UTC)(link)
Running you through with my sword then healing you has appeal.

[identity profile] powered-otaku.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 09:07 am (UTC)(link)
*Hiro faces him, his hands down at his sides.*

Do it.

[identity profile] changehistory.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 08:44 pm (UTC)(link)
*slight scowl*

It's no fun if you outright offer.

[identity profile] powered-otaku.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 09:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Maybe I should turn my back to you?

[identity profile] changehistory.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 09:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Is that what you think of me?

[identity profile] powered-otaku.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 09:59 pm (UTC)(link)
I thought maybe it would make it easier if I got you angry.

[identity profile] changehistory.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 10:06 pm (UTC)(link)
I think we could both do without you trying to make me deliberately angry.

[identity profile] powered-otaku.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Without making you angry? How do you think I feel? Rage fills me and all of it is impotent in the face of your power. I can't hurt you. I can't wound you where I can see it! *He visibly corrals his temper.* One of us should get some satisfaction.

[identity profile] changehistory.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 10:43 pm (UTC)(link)
*far, far, far too calm*

Would you put me back there, then, carp? Would that satisfy you? Freeze time and cut my head from my body as you should have 400 years ago? Would it be done, then?

[identity profile] powered-otaku.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 10:49 pm (UTC)(link)
If it had truly ever satisfied me, I would have left you there. I would have cut off your head and left you dead and gone and never able to return. But I couldn't. It scares me - the things I feel for you, the conflict I feel when I see you. The only way this is done is that I die. So it is either you or time that ends this.

*He sounds tired, defeated. His eyes look far away.*

[identity profile] changehistory.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 10:54 pm (UTC)(link)
And is there no middle ground we can find? Because angry as I am, I know I would heal any would I dealt..except the ones I can never heal.

[identity profile] powered-otaku.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 11:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Would you have me live forever? Would you be able to stand that? Stare at the face of your betrayer for eternity? Is it not better that you win in the end?

[identity profile] changehistory.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 11:13 pm (UTC)(link)
I would prefer to win by finding a way through the anger.

[identity profile] powered-otaku.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 11:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Can you let go of your anger? Even in the face of the one who has caused it?

[identity profile] changehistory.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 11:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Perhaps. Some day. I would wish to. I want to.

[identity profile] powered-otaku.livejournal.com 2007-12-16 11:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Then time will be the ultimate decider of my fate.