changehistory | Meta thought of the night brought to you by my mun's trip to airport...

*softly, maybe a little sadly* Someone I... used to know. He helped teach me -- helped me learn how to control at least some of this.

He's the one I mentioned... I was losing control of everything after I regenerated the first -- well, I guess it was really the second -- time, and he punched me. I kind of remember him saying 'well, it's a start.'

*watching him again*

Ah. I suppose that makes a bit more sense, then.

It... *flatly* ...he left. They found us and he got scared and left.

*brushes fingers down his cheek, faint frown*

I'm sorry, Peter.

*leans into his touch, trying not to show how sad he is*

It's not your fault at all -- you were locked up, and you certainly weren't out hunting people.

ooc: omg Claude will never forgive me for this... *continues setting him up*

*strokes his cheek lightly*

Well, no. But it pains me to think of anyone doing that to you.

ooc: LOL. And Adam's already less than fond. Possessive boy.

*soft sigh*

He didn't-- the company was-- They nearly caught us, and... He got scared. *frowns* You wouldn't want to be locked up again either, would you?

ooc: *snrk* When Claude finally finds out what Adam's been doing to Peter, that'll be interesting!

No. *quietly* But neither would I have left you behind.

ooc: LOL. I know. Adam's all "*eyebrow arch*"

*looks up in surprise* You wouldn't? I-- *frowns* He was scared, Adam. He can't do what we can do...

Just because we can do what we can do doesn't mean I'm not afraid of them, too, Peter. *quiet* The amount of pain someone can inflict on those who cannot die from it, no matter how much they might beg for death is immense.

*shudders at the thought of it* I don't-- God, Adam, I'm sorry.

Just... don't blame him, okay? He was helping me, and then they went and screwed it all up.

*shortly, glancing away* It wasn't your fault.

And he left you there to deal with them yourself.

*angry now, energy starting to crackle around his hands* They have no right...

*firmly* It's not Claude's fault.

*glances back at him, faint frown* No, but they did. It's done now.

*shrugs* As you say.

*soft growl* We're not toys for them to play with...

*shakes his head*

They will never see that.

*sighs* I wish there was a way to make them see it that wouldn't make us the bad guys...

They are already convinced I am the bad guy, Peter, and nothing will change that.

*gently* There's a difference between them thinking you're the bad guy, and us actually being the bad guys.

*philosophically* Is there? Isn't it all about perception, really? Truth and history are the stories of the ones who won, who style themselves the good guys, in the long run.

If they have the power and they think I am the bad guy and they are the ones telling the story that will last...*faint shrug*

No! No, there's a huge difference... Do you just want to appear good in the history books, or do you want to be good?

ooc: sorry for the long delay in answering things -- been working on stuff with Claude. omg the care and feeding of your emo!Claude...

Who defines what is good, Peter? Who decides, and where do we learn, if not from history? The Church? The Church is a political instrument, as it always has been, forcing it's version of morality with the whip or the flame, no matter which side of the line you are on. Is that good? Is it right to brand a woman because of her husband's accusations, because of a child who is different? What sort of "goodness" is that? And if that is what our religious leaders would do...where can we turn to find what is good? What is right?

History is all we have.

ooc: No worries! Though Adam missed Peter. *snugs him* I told him I was catching up on other things, too, and he could deal. ;-) And, err, sorry for his massively emo musings. He's been like that for a while now.

Okay, so maybe I'm a naive child, but I think good is helping people when they need it. Giving aid to those who are hurt, or hungry, or sick. And I may have been raised a good Roman Catholic boy, but I think you know enough about me to know I don't agree with a lot of things the Church says...

I didn't call you a child. I asked a question. And I would agree those things are good. I saved a village in Japan. I saved a whole contingent of my men in World War II--even got a medal--and helped with the survivors of the concentration camps. And yet, I am still deemed evil by pretty much everyone I've ever cared for. No one sees the bigger picture, and no one can point to things without drawing lines, and all that will be remembered are the bad things.

No, you didn't. I did. Me, and Claude -- well, he went as far as adolescent, at least -- and sometimes even Nathan. *sighs* So you'd rather be remembered as a good guy than actually be a good guy? Help me understand, Adam -- I honestly don't get it. We have all these powers -- we can help people. I bet the men you saved -- and the survivors of those camps -- thanked you. Aren't they more important than some history book?

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