There should have been that guidance. Always...I always wanted all of you to know. To have that guidance and assurance, and someone there to let you know there was nothing wrong.
When I first started having the dreams... even Nathan thought I was crazy. That... hurt. If we'd known-- why did they hide it from us? How was keeping us in the dark and making us scared supposed to keep us safe from the Company? I just... it doesn't make sense.
I don't know, Peter. I always...I wanted every child born to know who we were and what we could do--an environment of openness they could grow up feeling safe in, and not afraid when their powers manifested.
Unfortunately, that didn't happen. And I spent way too many months wondering if there really was something wrong with me. I know there isn't, now, but god, I could have done without that. I don't know if Mom expects me to welcome her back with open arms or what, but... what a mess.
Something tells me you weren't exactly expecting your friends to turn against you. Look, I don't blame you, okay? And I ended up being a pretty big pawn in all of their crazy plans.
I hate to say this, but you're not infallible. We all take those risks. We all have to trust someone, sometime. Otherwise, we go through life completely alone, and that's... that's a terrible way to be.
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There should have been that guidance. Always...I always wanted all of you to know. To have that guidance and assurance, and someone there to let you know there was nothing wrong.
ooc: Yeah. They SO did.
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When I first started having the dreams... even Nathan thought I was crazy. That... hurt. If we'd known-- why did they hide it from us? How was keeping us in the dark and making us scared supposed to keep us safe from the Company? I just... it doesn't make sense.
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I don't know, Peter. I always...I wanted every child born to know who we were and what we could do--an environment of openness they could grow up feeling safe in, and not afraid when their powers manifested.
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It would have been so different...
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Yes, it would have.
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Unfortunately, that didn't happen. And I spent way too many months wondering if there really was something wrong with me. I know there isn't, now, but god, I could have done without that. I don't know if Mom expects me to welcome her back with open arms or what, but... what a mess.
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I'm sorry.
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Okay, wait. *firm* You need to stop taking the blame for what they did. You had absolutely no control over what they did while you were locked away!
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I let them lock me away. I am the one who pulled those that turned against me in to everything.
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Something tells me you weren't exactly expecting your friends to turn against you. Look, I don't blame you, okay? And I ended up being a pretty big pawn in all of their crazy plans.
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Expecting it or not, it happened. My bad judgment.
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I hate to say this, but you're not infallible. We all take those risks. We all have to trust someone, sometime. Otherwise, we go through life completely alone, and that's... that's a terrible way to be.
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I've handled it in the past.
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So what? So you've handled it in the past? You've cut yourself off from human interaction and feeling before? And that's a good thing?
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