But Ted was only tagged recently, wasn't he? A plan like this had to be in motion for years... *shakes his head, getting a headache from trying to muddle through it*
*wraps his arms around Adam, relaxing against him* I-- thank you.
(ooc: I know! God, Peter, get a grip! emooooooo... See, this is the point where Claude would just whack him with something to shake him out of it. :))
It's possible they just knew it could happen--not whom it would happen to. And when they did...you had already gained Claire's power. I honestly don't know, what with the having been in the cell as they were plotting.
*strokes fingers through his hair, lightly* It's all right now, Peter. I won't let them use you like that again.
(ooc: LOL. Well, more he's having trouble trying to be as honest as possible with Peter without implicating himself in any of the destroy the world plotting. the emo doesn't bother him so much, because it gives him the chance to reassure him. *g*)
I don't know. I already know she hasn't been honest with me for a long while -- I saw... I have no idea how, but I saw part of a discussion she had with Charles Deveaux about me and Nathan. She was convinced I was... pretty useless.
*arms tighten* That's ridiculous. Not that you saw it...I'm not doubting you. But that she could ever think that. I've never thought of her as being so blind and short-sighted.
Charles told her Linderman was betting on the wrong brother -- that I was what they needed... She was still convinced it was Nathan, because I was... *ducks gaze* ...weak.
I always liked Charles a great deal. He was a very smart man. Though your mother...*shakes his head* She had her reasons for her belief in Nathan. Her fault was not seeing the different strength in you.
*very softly, brushing a kiss across his temple* I am sorry....
ooc: GAH. He's all "it's because Arthur was weak and she loved me better and you weren't mine, but I'm glad you're not my blood, 'cause you can be mine in other ways, but if you'd been my blood, you wouldn't be so insecure and feel so unwanted now!" and then he flails.
I really liked Charles. He was a good man. *sadly* I wish I'd known he was one of us before he died -- it would have been nice to have some kind of guidance. To know from the start that I wasn't imagining things and there wasn't something wrong with me...
ooc: Poor flaily Adam. And poor insecure Peter. The previous generation really did screw things up a bit, didn't they!
There should have been that guidance. Always...I always wanted all of you to know. To have that guidance and assurance, and someone there to let you know there was nothing wrong.
When I first started having the dreams... even Nathan thought I was crazy. That... hurt. If we'd known-- why did they hide it from us? How was keeping us in the dark and making us scared supposed to keep us safe from the Company? I just... it doesn't make sense.
I don't know, Peter. I always...I wanted every child born to know who we were and what we could do--an environment of openness they could grow up feeling safe in, and not afraid when their powers manifested.
Unfortunately, that didn't happen. And I spent way too many months wondering if there really was something wrong with me. I know there isn't, now, but god, I could have done without that. I don't know if Mom expects me to welcome her back with open arms or what, but... what a mess.
Something tells me you weren't exactly expecting your friends to turn against you. Look, I don't blame you, okay? And I ended up being a pretty big pawn in all of their crazy plans.
I hate to say this, but you're not infallible. We all take those risks. We all have to trust someone, sometime. Otherwise, we go through life completely alone, and that's... that's a terrible way to be.
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Date: 2007-12-17 10:10 am (UTC)*wraps his arms around Adam, relaxing against him* I-- thank you.
(ooc: I know! God, Peter, get a grip! emooooooo... See, this is the point where Claude would just whack him with something to shake him out of it. :))
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Date: 2007-12-17 05:06 pm (UTC)*strokes fingers through his hair, lightly* It's all right now, Peter. I won't let them use you like that again.
(ooc: LOL. Well, more he's having trouble trying to be as honest as possible with Peter without implicating himself in any of the destroy the world plotting. the emo doesn't bother him so much, because it gives him the chance to reassure him. *g*)
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Date: 2007-12-20 11:37 pm (UTC)*holds him close, buries his face against Adam's neck* Thank you.
(ooc: Hee -- Peter does give him many chances to influence him, doesn't he! Silly, silly boy...)
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Date: 2007-12-21 04:14 am (UTC)*brushes a kiss against his temple* I promise...
(ooc: He so does. And Adam just takes them with a fond smile)
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Date: 2007-12-31 11:05 am (UTC)*relaxes into his arms*
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Date: 2008-01-03 07:53 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-01-03 08:24 am (UTC)*very softly, brushing a kiss across his temple* I am sorry....
ooc: GAH. He's all "it's because Arthur was weak and she loved me better and you weren't mine, but I'm glad you're not my blood, 'cause you can be mine in other ways, but if you'd been my blood, you wouldn't be so insecure and feel so unwanted now!" and then he flails.
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Date: 2008-01-04 02:53 am (UTC)ooc: Poor flaily Adam. And poor insecure Peter. The previous generation really did screw things up a bit, didn't they!
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Date: 2008-01-04 06:38 am (UTC)There should have been that guidance. Always...I always wanted all of you to know. To have that guidance and assurance, and someone there to let you know there was nothing wrong.
ooc: Yeah. They SO did.
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Date: 2008-01-04 09:24 am (UTC)When I first started having the dreams... even Nathan thought I was crazy. That... hurt. If we'd known-- why did they hide it from us? How was keeping us in the dark and making us scared supposed to keep us safe from the Company? I just... it doesn't make sense.
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Date: 2008-01-04 05:52 pm (UTC)I don't know, Peter. I always...I wanted every child born to know who we were and what we could do--an environment of openness they could grow up feeling safe in, and not afraid when their powers manifested.
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Date: 2008-01-04 10:07 pm (UTC)It would have been so different...
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Date: 2008-01-04 10:09 pm (UTC)Yes, it would have.
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Date: 2008-01-04 10:58 pm (UTC)Unfortunately, that didn't happen. And I spent way too many months wondering if there really was something wrong with me. I know there isn't, now, but god, I could have done without that. I don't know if Mom expects me to welcome her back with open arms or what, but... what a mess.
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Date: 2008-01-04 11:13 pm (UTC)I'm sorry.
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Date: 2008-01-05 12:43 pm (UTC)Okay, wait. *firm* You need to stop taking the blame for what they did. You had absolutely no control over what they did while you were locked away!
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Date: 2008-01-05 06:43 pm (UTC)I let them lock me away. I am the one who pulled those that turned against me in to everything.
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Date: 2008-01-06 04:06 am (UTC)Something tells me you weren't exactly expecting your friends to turn against you. Look, I don't blame you, okay? And I ended up being a pretty big pawn in all of their crazy plans.
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Date: 2008-01-06 04:33 am (UTC)Expecting it or not, it happened. My bad judgment.
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Date: 2008-01-06 12:19 pm (UTC)I hate to say this, but you're not infallible. We all take those risks. We all have to trust someone, sometime. Otherwise, we go through life completely alone, and that's... that's a terrible way to be.
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Date: 2008-01-06 05:33 pm (UTC)I've handled it in the past.
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Date: 2008-01-14 12:48 pm (UTC)So what? So you've handled it in the past? You've cut yourself off from human interaction and feeling before? And that's a good thing?
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Date: 2008-01-15 07:12 am (UTC)